A Reflection

After some self-reflecting I’ve realized that recently I’ve been taking a more positive attitude towards life in Australia. Well, the depressing and pmsey days still exist but there are fewer of them this time round. On a general scale, I’m “more functional” these days and can concentrate better during class. I’ve also noticed that I can happily while away my time doing things by myself and yet, not feel lonely. I’m really glad that whenever I think of home or loved ones, a smile, a feeling of familiarity and warmth comes to heart instead of the previously depressing feelings of neglect and nostalgia that almost always led to tears and subsequent brooding. Now that those weights have lifted, I feel so much more lighthearted and sometimes even walk with a spring in my step. I suppose I’ve come to the realization that these 3 plus more years that I have yet to complete before I obtain my degree are something that I must do. It is a personal challenge, a dream even. I’ve come to know that even though I may be physically separated from my loved ones, the emotional link will never fade and the way they feel towards me will never change. That was something I didn’t understand in the past. I thought that as with the distance, our emotional ties would be stretched apart and I felt like I was left alone to cope by myself in a foreign land, doing the things that I’d always taken for granted and never been accustomed to doing. Spending time away from my family and special someone does not have to be difficult. The only person that can make it difficult is oneself. By believing and trusting in those I love, I’m finding myself a happier and less reclusive person.